The cold world around us

Sometimes I look around me and wonder if the love in this world is growing cold. Every year people get stiffer and a bit more nastier. Less and less people say "hello' when you're walking down the street. They glare at me. It's real hard to keep from losing it sometimes. I feel like I'm from another planet sometimes. They used tell you in the eighties to be yourself. I  am myself. I don't think a lot of people really like who I am. What's wrong with having fun? Why can't I be zany? That is what I like. I think people tell you to be yourself so they can kick you the rest of your life. Every day I am sucked into the idea of conforming to boredom or being normal as they call it. The world wants you to work lots of hours, shut up and hate your life. I don't do either and I don't hate my life and people hate me for not hating it. I wish things were not so weird in this world. What if all the people who say random smart comments to you in the grocery store are right about what they say. And you say"oka-aaay" like they are retarded. What if you are retarded? There are people who are destroyed in life and others continue to hurt them by not making them feel valid. It gets harder for me to cope with. I promise you if you love your life more than anyone else, they will kick at you to no end. The greatest crime that you can commit is to enjoy your life, just ask the people in China. They don't want large crowds of people being freed from the "dumb shit". Enjoy you're life how you really want to and the cops will show up. I am never going to cave into this crap. I'm going to enjoy my days here that God gave me. Life is waiting for you  to give up and eat cow shit. Oh, if you don't like me saying "shit", I'll tell you, every living thing makes it. I think we should say "shit" because every time someone says "poop" they sound like a five year old. There is no such thing as freedom because you're only free if you're doing the same things that other people do. The world puts so much emphasis on success. I see all the successful people. They can buy everything they want but then they still hate their life. Is this what makes people grow cold?They have more stuff than a jungle but they don't ever have time to use it. They spend money to get the dust off their toys because they are so busy. They are miserable because they are too greedy. If you wait until you retire to enjoy life,more than likely you'll be to old to enjoy it. If you let your love grow cold enough you might end up lonely and so much that no one will talk to you after a while. If you pretend to be happy long enough it's like piano lessons or anything else. You will end up being that happiest person.......... you can only become the best if you practice more than everyone else.