ON BEING NEEDED

I've had issues with feeling needed in my life. It's been a lonely journey most of the time. What does it really mean to be needed? People can't handle their life so they ask you to help them across their river of fire. Is that what being needed means? Are we all yearning to be someone's smoke trooper? Maybe I don't need to be needed that way. Is their a difference between being loved and being needed? I don't really think there is a difference in the world of man. You always hear people say when they break up with somebody," I love him/her but we're not in love anymore." This means that he/she is played out and" I want another movie." If we don't tickle each other for a season or two it's over. I've heard people say "I can't love someone if they don't have anything I need." If love consists of what people can do for you then it is one sided. Do you ever do anything for anyone just because you love them? My picture of human love is very scratched up. I wonder if it even exists at all. There are doubts in my mind that make me believe love is a fictional word, kind of like freedom. You're free but you are never really free and you are loved but you're never really loved either.  Sometimes this world really confuses me.