When the bad and the ugly create good things.

I used to get drunk out of my mind all the time and call my mom collect and cry. Nothing made any sense to me in my early 20's. Many of the people I met died tragically to the point I thought one day it would happen to me too. I did not think I would live to be 30 and therefore didn't want to or plan to. My head and face were getting more and more scars from fights and I was visiting the emergency room more than the church in those years. I lived on the streets and in various old abandoned buildings. In 1995 two days before Christmas I decided to buy a whole bottle of vodka for myself. Then I went Down to the river to drink it. I sat down on a bench and some guy I really hated asked me for some swills. I told him as loud as I could to F off. A few minutes later the guy left and there weren't any girls there so I left too. But before I got off the riverwalk two men ushered me over to them. " Do you know where I can find some LSD ?"one of them asked me. "No." I said. "And I wouldn't tell you if I did." He asked me a bunch of questions about if I liked to fight alot. "yes!! I love it!"I replied back.  Then I got the surprise of my life when he pulled out a bright, shiny badge, and then he said, "You're under arrest!" He then knocked the bottle of vodka out of my hand and dove on top of me. The next thing I knew I was in handcuffs on my way to New Orleans Jail or Orleans Parish Prison. I sat in a cell with eight guys for three weeks not knowing when I was going to get out. I cried there more than I ever had to God in those days. Not long after I got out I quit drinking and started going to church alot. Over the years God has changed me to where I can't live without him. I am just as broken as I ever was sometimes but my hope is solid in him now. That is who I love and I feel so bad that I wasted so much time drinking . I wish I could have found him sooner. Going to Jail was a blessing but at the time I didn't see it that way. one of my biggest and greatest discoveries is that being jailed can either punish you or turn you into the sweetest person ever. I love God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!